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Singledom

Posted on July 10, 2015 | Leave a comment

Reasons I’m single:

  • I’m picky
  • I’m insecure (about my body, among other things…maybe it’s time to go to a gym)
  • When I meet a guy I determine his friendship potential instead of relationship potential (maybe it’s time to change my outlook >.<)
  • I deflect compliments automatically (see #2) which makes the guy think I’m not into him
  • I make a lot of excuses for why that guy isn’t right
  • I automatically see the demise of the relationship and find reasons why it won’t work out
  • When a guy expresses interest in me, I laugh it off and discuss what a great friend he is or deflect

Now I have a list of habits to change.

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Relationship Status: Single

Posted on July 4, 2015 | Leave a comment

It hit me yesterday, striking me out of the blue.

The desire to be in a relationship. The wish to have attended the event with someone by my side.

I’ve resisted it for a long time, because I prefer being single than being with the wrong person but yesterday I caught myself looking at couples wistfully. And it took me aback. Why? Because I was never that girl who wanted to be in a relationship. I always cherished my freedom. I loved it. I enjoyed it to the fullest. I preferred being by myself than wasting time with the wrong person. I saw how many of my friends and acquaintances had shackled themselves to the wrong person. And truth be told, I always felt a little smug that I hadn’t fallen into that trap and made the same mistake they had.

But yesterday was different.

I wanted to be part of an “us”. I wanted to show up with a special someone by my side. I wanted to laugh at jokes the host and hostess told and catch his eye sharing our own secret smile.

It caught me completely by surprise.

It looks like I’ll have to do something about it.

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