Category Archives: Disordered Ramblings

Musings

  • Travel: I went to Scotland! It’s beautiful and I had a lovely time but next time I’ll have to plan a visit to the highlands. I didn’t manage to make it to Glasgow because  decided to extend our stay in Edinburgh, we loved it so much. I’m hoping to go back next year.
  • Editing Progress: I’m on a tight schedule when it comes to writing. I’ve got a Line Edit scheduled for the 23rd and I have to hustle to meet it.
  • Fall Projects: I can’t believe it’s September! The temperature outside is still sizzling but I’m going to try to start walking around the neighborhood. As the month progresses, the temperature will cool. I can’t wait to start my project!
  • Edgar: I love Edgar! It’s super useful. I have to come up with some content. Always tomorrow!
  • Books: So many amazing books out this month! I’ve added them all to my TBR pile. I can’t wait to start Sarah J. Maas’s QUEEN OF SHADOWS and I have to find the time in between the writing to read all the rest.

The Compulsion to Take Scorching Hot Showers

I’ve noticed recently that every time I step in to take a shower, I obsess over getting the water to be as hot as possible. And by hot I mean it has to be scorching hot, just a breath away from being painful.

I don’t remember when this compulsion first started. I’ve tried to explain the feeling that washes over me as the water hits my skin. I cherish every drop of hot water as if it will be the last I ever have. It’s almost as if I know I’m going to reach a point in my life when I won’t have the luxury of taking hot showers. That if I wanted a hot shower, I’d have to boil water and it still will never get to the degree I want it to be. So I try to see how much I can take of the heat so that I can forever hold on to the memory of it.

It’s the strangest thing.

This is not the first time I’ve had feelings that felt like premonitions. I really hope this doesn’t come to pass but until then, I’m going to keep taking my luxuriously hot showers.

Dreams and Dreamers

I got an email minutes ago and I’m feeling spooked.

Why?

My friend Isabel lives across the globe. We haven’t been in touch for months. She doesn’t know anything about what’s been going on with me and my recent feelings of getting fed up with being single. From our past discussions she knows that I very much enjoy the single life.

We’re good friends but we’re not super close. I’ve never discussed my ideal guy/marriage/etc. with her. And yet, her dream describes the exact scenario I was wishing for.

Isabel, on the other side of the world, has dreamt of everything I’ve been wishing for.

I’m still a little shaken. I may be overreacting but I just find it really strange.

Here is the email in full:

I had a dream about you last night. You were getting married. You did not tell me and kept it secret. We were emailing each other about when we could get together. We both had various things happening over the space of a year. It was like we wanted to travel to meet up. You said we could after January but not at a midyear point because you were going to have a baby. I was shocked. You said you got married but were sorry you could not tell me. It was quiet. When I asked how it happened, you said your brother had arranged for you two meeting. Your husband was approved by your family or his family was approved but not someone that you knew. He was someone you did not really know. He might have been a little older than you. You texted for awhile and communicated with each other. You seemed well with him, like it was something you had not expected but that he was/is a GOOD MAN. I think he was quiet and not someone who likes to be in the front lines. He is steady and has a good heart. Not someone in your social circle. He was a man that was open to you traveling and your freedom was not restricted. He enjoys who you are. The marriage was a quiet one.It was not a public one. He likes things to be quiet and private. I think he might have worked with your brother or at a bank. This was in my dream.

What does it mean? I do not know? You seemed content with your new direction in life.

I know I was joyful for you.

Love,
Isabel

I can’t help but wish for her dream to come true. What wish are you hiding in your heart?

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Musings

  • The 27 Week Project Update: Time to confess, I only went to the gym once since Monday. I haven’t been watching what I’m eating and so I’m dreading Monday’s weigh-in. I’ll have to hit the gym extra hard this weekend.
  • Writing Progress: I had an editing deadline yesterday and another next week. It’s been a little hectic trying to get everything on time because of personal issues. Several family members are in the hospital and it’s tough finding time to do things. I’m still thankful because it could have been much worse, I could have missed my deadline.
  • Travel: I’m excited about visiting Glasgow & Edinburgh. It’s coming up soon! I can’t wait to go on the walking tours I’ve scheduled. And I can already predict I will be spending a lot of time in bookstores!
  • Fall Projects: I want to be active this fall and go on walking tours of the city. I’ve been planning ahead of what I’d like to blog about. For example, I’d love to showcase the random art that surrounds us in Kuwait. I’ll post a separate post about that later.
  • TBR pile: I have 632 books. I’m wondering whether it’s worth sitting down and trimming it down. Maybe when I have a spare minute or two…
  • More Books:  I’m super excited that Robin Hobb has a new book coming out mid-August! FOOL’S QUEST! I can’t wait to get more Fitz!
  • Movies: At this rate I feel like I’m never going to have time to watch Ex-Machina. I also need to remember to watch Dope. I wonder if any good movies will be playing when I’m in the UK. Off to check…

Eid Mubarak

Eid fell on Friday. It’s been three days of me being cooped up at home working on edits. I’m making progress but I have to hustle to meet my next deadline.

For a change of scene, I made plans to meet friends for brunch tomorrow. It would be nice to get some sun. I also have to run some errands before work resumes on Tuesday.

I’m not looking forward to going back to work but at least there won’t be many people at the office. Most people decided to take the three days off and travel; I’m expecting a light workload. I’m hoping I will have time to work on my edits during the workday.