I’ve noticed recently that every time I step in to take a shower, I obsess over getting the water to be as hot as possible. And by hot I mean it has to be scorching hot, just a breath away from being painful.
I don’t remember when this compulsion first started. I’ve tried to explain the feeling that washes over me as the water hits my skin. I cherish every drop of hot water as if it will be the last I ever have. It’s almost as if I know I’m going to reach a point in my life when I won’t have the luxury of taking hot showers. That if I wanted a hot shower, I’d have to boil water and it still will never get to the degree I want it to be. So I try to see how much I can take of the heat so that I can forever hold on to the memory of it.
It’s the strangest thing.
This is not the first time I’ve had feelings that felt like premonitions. I really hope this doesn’t come to pass but until then, I’m going to keep taking my luxuriously hot showers.
